While the purpose of this blog was to talk about what is going on in my life from my persepective, while also exploring what God is doing, or maybe teaching me in my life I am debating if I should delete this blog or not as it seems the politics of blogging is to complex....... At times it is to easy to offend some one some times because you have miss understood them. While other times for different reasens, up till this point the blog has helped me grow as a christian, god has used it to bring up conversations and I hope it helps other people.
Any way I will pray on this, and will at some point in time make a decision.
Friday, October 19, 2007
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Godly men.......
Well after a lot of thought I have decided to make this post.. The topic of how to be a godly man is a big one, these are just a few rambling thoughts on such a big topic. The idea started from talking with some Christians, on overcoming sin, and latter through people running for focus community.
The first concept I want to explore is overcoming sin. It is I believe when over coming sin contearly to what I misstakenly took a Christian ti say "Concentrate on overcoming big area's of sin in your life before you worry about evangelizing to people or uni work of for that matter any thing else I want to point out to some people this is not actually an effective way of overcoming your sin, as sin is consterantly then on your mind many your maybe temtped even more and even more likely to give in as your mind is often on the sin, this is not to say that this is you being tested more then what you can handel because god never tests us in a manner in which we can not handel. Rather I find its helpful to repent from our sin, and spend time in praying for gods help in overcoming the sin, however once we have reacived god forgives we should no longer feel guilty because god has forgiven us. Hence when I find my self in this position after receiving gods forgiveness I still concentrating on working for god because this shows faith in the lord that he has helped you overcome this area of sin. The manner in which you contue to evangelize people is also important, as it is important not to claim to be some thing you are not and if you have reacently had a proublem with a sin, do not pretend to be perfect or to take the high and mighty ground rather admit your faults and use it as a oppitunity to point out with out christ you still fall short of the glory of god. It is also important to remove aspect of our life that encourage you to sin because this is acting in a godly manner but rather we should also act in faith.
This does not mean people should put their names for for roles in the church in which by their sinfully acts they do not fulfill the requirements for ie: elder-ship / leadership. While we are forgiven by God actually wants people who have overcome the sin for a period of time as they are more likely to remain blameless on the topics of sexual sins and drunkenness while in the respective role. Even if from a a worldly sense they would do a good job (ie would be very effective at) and from a biblical sense they are all most their,if their are area of recent sin in their life that they have resecentily overcome or still needs to work on the should not run. As people need to realize it does not actually matter how effective you would be at that job if you do not fit the requirements that god places for the job you are actually undermining god's Authority as you are not respecting the requirements that he places on the job. If no one can fulfill the role, well then it is better that no one is in the job then some one who does not meet Gods requirements. This is why I didn't run for the focus comity this year because of my problems earlier in the year with achole. This is not to say I will not meet the requirement in a a year or a few years however, rather merely means god needs to refine them further first. And if I or another Christian was to runing for a role in the church that I could not fufil gods requirments for for I would actually hope Christians would speak up, as it is their duty to speak up over wise they would also be undermining God's Authority. I have found from previous experiences this is easier said then done as it involves bringing up personal details about some one else that have often required trust to be built up over a period of time, however in the end it comes down who is your master? God of your friendships!
On another topic Random thoughts on Adultery and sexual sin.
In the area of sexual sin aka adultery I realized that lust is in some ways a different sin to masturbation, as when you lustfully look at a women, you are sinning with your mind, When people masturbate they are actually also committing two sins a "sexual act" as well as a "sin of lust". While having sex with a women out of wedlock is a worse sin again because it is actually three sins, a sin of lust, a sexual sin, while also causing another to sin and hence is worse again. So while all sins are equal depending on the extent people act on the sin they may actually be committing more then one sin.
The first concept I want to explore is overcoming sin. It is I believe when over coming sin contearly to what I misstakenly took a Christian ti say "Concentrate on overcoming big area's of sin in your life before you worry about evangelizing to people or uni work of for that matter any thing else I want to point out to some people this is not actually an effective way of overcoming your sin, as sin is consterantly then on your mind many your maybe temtped even more and even more likely to give in as your mind is often on the sin, this is not to say that this is you being tested more then what you can handel because god never tests us in a manner in which we can not handel. Rather I find its helpful to repent from our sin, and spend time in praying for gods help in overcoming the sin, however once we have reacived god forgives we should no longer feel guilty because god has forgiven us. Hence when I find my self in this position after receiving gods forgiveness I still concentrating on working for god because this shows faith in the lord that he has helped you overcome this area of sin. The manner in which you contue to evangelize people is also important, as it is important not to claim to be some thing you are not and if you have reacently had a proublem with a sin, do not pretend to be perfect or to take the high and mighty ground rather admit your faults and use it as a oppitunity to point out with out christ you still fall short of the glory of god. It is also important to remove aspect of our life that encourage you to sin because this is acting in a godly manner but rather we should also act in faith.
This does not mean people should put their names for for roles in the church in which by their sinfully acts they do not fulfill the requirements for ie: elder-ship / leadership. While we are forgiven by God actually wants people who have overcome the sin for a period of time as they are more likely to remain blameless on the topics of sexual sins and drunkenness while in the respective role. Even if from a a worldly sense they would do a good job (ie would be very effective at) and from a biblical sense they are all most their,if their are area of recent sin in their life that they have resecentily overcome or still needs to work on the should not run. As people need to realize it does not actually matter how effective you would be at that job if you do not fit the requirements that god places for the job you are actually undermining god's Authority as you are not respecting the requirements that he places on the job. If no one can fulfill the role, well then it is better that no one is in the job then some one who does not meet Gods requirements. This is why I didn't run for the focus comity this year because of my problems earlier in the year with achole. This is not to say I will not meet the requirement in a a year or a few years however, rather merely means god needs to refine them further first. And if I or another Christian was to runing for a role in the church that I could not fufil gods requirments for for I would actually hope Christians would speak up, as it is their duty to speak up over wise they would also be undermining God's Authority. I have found from previous experiences this is easier said then done as it involves bringing up personal details about some one else that have often required trust to be built up over a period of time, however in the end it comes down who is your master? God of your friendships!
On another topic Random thoughts on Adultery and sexual sin.
In the area of sexual sin aka adultery I realized that lust is in some ways a different sin to masturbation, as when you lustfully look at a women, you are sinning with your mind, When people masturbate they are actually also committing two sins a "sexual act" as well as a "sin of lust". While having sex with a women out of wedlock is a worse sin again because it is actually three sins, a sin of lust, a sexual sin, while also causing another to sin and hence is worse again. So while all sins are equal depending on the extent people act on the sin they may actually be committing more then one sin.
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
Past 24 hours.
Past 24 well proubly 26 hours know.
During the past 24 to 28 or so hours I have seen the lord work in such a strong way, SO LET ME JUST SAY FIRST OUR GOD IS AN ALLSOME GOD. Ok moving on from that statement that is so true, and I feel like shouting so that all the universe can hear 24 hours aday, to the massage that I want to write.
Since the con christian group god has been showing me what it means to carry the cross,not just a cross made out of craft wood or bollsa wood, not just a cross that I place around my neck to say I believe in Jesus Christ as Lord but to carring the cross that the bible calls us to do. To live as though you are allready dead and to serve god with all your life some would call this being a religious fantic most likely.
So what does this mean?
1: GOD COMES FIRST IN ALL THINGS
2: All money and all I have is God's
3: I will no longer purchase or buy things for the sake of my self. Drinks take aways you name it (I will not purchase it unless little other option at the time) I can only do this through the strength of the holly spirit
4: No uni work or any thing else will come in front of what gods doing in my day to day life
5: I will use my time wisely.
In the past I have prayed that I become a slave for Christ or that I will carry the cross but, it was like god said no you are not ready, as such he allso did not show me what it truely meant its like he was saying I have more work to do in you before I can take you on that journey.
Since he has shown me what it means and has called me to carry the cross my walk with god has been amazing. Though I know that their will be times when the cross gets heavy and I may even drop it for a time by going back to my own strength or giving in to sin in another way I know their will be god and christians their helping me pick the cross back up. THis is because god is a Amazing god. he has allowed me to rest in him ready for the rough road ahead. The norrow road he has set out for each one of us to find when the time is right to do so.
So pray for me and that he may give me wisedom and guidance on a day to day level as well as for the longer term if that is what he desires that through his grace I may carry my cross, along the road he has set out.
Also in the last week or two time after time he keeps showing me Mosses, in relation to ministery, and other area's of my life I do not know if god has shown me fully why yet so pray for guidance on this.
May god be with you, Mark
During the past 24 to 28 or so hours I have seen the lord work in such a strong way, SO LET ME JUST SAY FIRST OUR GOD IS AN ALLSOME GOD. Ok moving on from that statement that is so true, and I feel like shouting so that all the universe can hear 24 hours aday, to the massage that I want to write.
Since the con christian group god has been showing me what it means to carry the cross,not just a cross made out of craft wood or bollsa wood, not just a cross that I place around my neck to say I believe in Jesus Christ as Lord but to carring the cross that the bible calls us to do. To live as though you are allready dead and to serve god with all your life some would call this being a religious fantic most likely.
So what does this mean?
1: GOD COMES FIRST IN ALL THINGS
2: All money and all I have is God's
3: I will no longer purchase or buy things for the sake of my self. Drinks take aways you name it (I will not purchase it unless little other option at the time) I can only do this through the strength of the holly spirit
4: No uni work or any thing else will come in front of what gods doing in my day to day life
5: I will use my time wisely.
In the past I have prayed that I become a slave for Christ or that I will carry the cross but, it was like god said no you are not ready, as such he allso did not show me what it truely meant its like he was saying I have more work to do in you before I can take you on that journey.
Since he has shown me what it means and has called me to carry the cross my walk with god has been amazing. Though I know that their will be times when the cross gets heavy and I may even drop it for a time by going back to my own strength or giving in to sin in another way I know their will be god and christians their helping me pick the cross back up. THis is because god is a Amazing god. he has allowed me to rest in him ready for the rough road ahead. The norrow road he has set out for each one of us to find when the time is right to do so.
So pray for me and that he may give me wisedom and guidance on a day to day level as well as for the longer term if that is what he desires that through his grace I may carry my cross, along the road he has set out.
Also in the last week or two time after time he keeps showing me Mosses, in relation to ministery, and other area's of my life I do not know if god has shown me fully why yet so pray for guidance on this.
May god be with you, Mark
Monday, August 6, 2007
Wow What I clip
Check out this video: Once Saved, Always Saved? ... The Final Word
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While I do not agree necisearly agree with all in this clip, it is amazing clip and really allows god to work and get you thinking.
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While I do not agree necisearly agree with all in this clip, it is amazing clip and really allows god to work and get you thinking.
This is a great clip,
I really found this clip challenging, specially after meeting with a few other christian UNI students, today at UNI in a group ran by focus and this conversation com up to some exten. This has given me more insight into what it Means though.
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"The End of Faith"
Think carefully before watching this clip: Though it does help to understand the way society is heading today specially todo with religion. IT draws some fair fetched conclusions that I will counter argue through the HELP OF MY GOD MY LORD in a video clip I am currently working on.
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Things to note if you do watch the clip
1: He judges christanty through the eyes of the world: Not through the question of did Jesus Rise from the dead, and if he did what meaning should that have.
2: Even to believe in "science and reasen" requires a level of Faith
3: Groups like the Natzi's believed in logic, and look at where that took us, this shows that religion is not the only worry for corrupting society.
But any way know dought if you choose to watch the clip you will notice significant floors in his arguement.
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Things to note if you do watch the clip
1: He judges christanty through the eyes of the world: Not through the question of did Jesus Rise from the dead, and if he did what meaning should that have.
2: Even to believe in "science and reasen" requires a level of Faith
3: Groups like the Natzi's believed in logic, and look at where that took us, this shows that religion is not the only worry for corrupting society.
But any way know dought if you choose to watch the clip you will notice significant floors in his arguement.
Check out this cool clip
(For A min I accidently uploaded the wrong clip I have fixed this up know I hope.)
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I have not fully taken not of the words so I do not know if I 100% agree with the theology behind it but still I like it.
(For A min I accidently uploaded the wrong clip I have fixed this up know I hope.)
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I have not fully taken not of the words so I do not know if I 100% agree with the theology behind it but still I like it.
Example: 1 Arguement 4 christ please guys comment on what is being said leave feed back and so on because this is just a draft.
An example of what I am thinking of doing is:
http://www.zendurl.com/p/p4c///arguement%204%20christ.mp3 (A must download)
at the moment you have to download the file to listen to it: I will soon be adding a media player and several other options to the site. The site will only be 4 the perpose of getting feedback on current Idea's and allow God to work through allowing other christians to give feedback. In the comming days I will rework some of them as well as adding more. While also please remember these works are only in their draft form. Regards Mark.
http://www.zendurl.com/p/p4c///arguement%204%20christ.mp3 (A must download)
at the moment you have to download the file to listen to it: I will soon be adding a media player and several other options to the site. The site will only be 4 the perpose of getting feedback on current Idea's and allow God to work through allowing other christians to give feedback. In the comming days I will rework some of them as well as adding more. While also please remember these works are only in their draft form. Regards Mark.
Please read the post bellow before reading this blog.
I have modified this from one of the people who job it is to work at the uni, His blog is great
http://mikejolly.blogspot.com/
But I'm not going to...I'm not going to cave into temptation. I am not going to hide and not produce these clips or run behind the camera if gods will is for me to be the one speaking.
I'm not taking the easy road out.I'm not giving up.I am a leader and God has called me to that position, I must lead by example even when I don't feel adequate for the task.I know that I am going to do the Video Clips because how I feel doesn't rule and dictate terms to me and my life. I don't serve my feelings but my creator who loved and died for me when I didn't deserve it.I have confidence in the Messages god has placed on my heart and they maybe a excellent tool for effective evangelism
While I do not have confidence in myself and abilities that God has given me to talk to people and to be an effective evangelist I have confidance that the lord can use me in this way. I have confidence because the lord has worked hard to prepare myself and my brain for the big task. I have confidence in God who is greater than myself and my efforts.I have confidence in the gospel and I'm nor ashamed to call myself a Christian.I have confidence in the Bible that God's word speaks powerfully to people today.I have confidence in the power of prayer.Lastly I have confidence in you the reader sitting in front of your computer at home that you'll also cry out to the God of the Universe to save people through these clips and bring the gospel to bear on their lives. May God be glorified.
I Will talk more about why I posted this is my next few posts which will hopefully be in the next few days.Sunday, August 5, 2007
A long blog about abit of every thing.
I have decided to bring up the topic in order of importance in my current life. So rathe then the length putting u off just stop reading when you have had enough.
Ever since mid year confrence I have been learning more about god and the way he works he is amazing did you guys know that. Some of these insights as well as some of the messages god has placed on my heart for a long time I am beging to record drafts in audio form ready for when I record them to film for myspace.
I will mostlikely get a UTUBE acount to post these drafts as well as audio blogs in the mean time their. Topics include what is faith? Why Jesus, and so on. All have been fairly well reasurched as well as having much insperation coming from the Holly Spirit. In the end all the credit for what is said needs to go to god. I am looking forward to filming these clips. For some reasen I feel time is short however I do not know why. Is it short because in god's soverighn plan their are people who need to hear the clip and if I take to long they will not get the oppitunty to? IS it short because if I do the clips soon the lord will open doors that will other wise be shut? OR is time short for me? or is it just my Imaganation? In the end only god knows the answer to this question. By the same tokin I do not want to rush the messages, or jepodise my UNI work so the ballance will need to be found some where.
Spose its just as well I do not have alot of time demands in my life at the min though I want to get some work, to enable me to have fundings to better serve god ie: through helping others, & to be less reliant on perents. As well as just having some extra money to do things with.
God is actually changing me: He is beging to show me exactly what can be accomplished when some one uses their time wisely. He has began to show me what happens when I spend more time on UNI work, Spend more time devoted to him and spend more time doign house work, rather then often sitting here on the computer and waiting for time to pass me by. Last week in a few days of solid work I managed to acomplish what normally takes me a week or more. Rather for once I did not find this tireing. Infact he is teaching and training me to live in society more productivly all the time.
My uni stuff is going well art theory is ok, for my writen subject I am actually trying to finsh my work early.Not much else to say really about UNI.
What else has changed ow thats right I have shaved my beard and hair, the hair was a pratical thing as it was getting in my eyes and needed it shorter, cheaper to do it witht he hair clips I think I ended up with a number 8 or some thing then go to the hair dressers. Though it is thining out and I like keeping as much as possible, this was just one of the many sacrofices I have made by living of the income of a Uni student. While the beard was because some of my mates wanted to see what I would look like with out it and the moie. LOL Ok I am not that keen on it but they all like it does this mean it stays shaved or grows back I do not know.
I went to an art exibition opening the other day and acidently got abit tipsy I was still in control of my actions and when I noticed I stoped drinking still one ting I have noticed is know since I am simply haveing the odd social drink I can not drink that much at all. Where as I could in the past drink a 6 pack in a few hours know a few standard drinks have a simlar effect. The one good thing is as soon as I noticed the effect I hated it and stoped drinking praise the lord. I wonder if thats god calling me to stop drinking completly, or just be even more matchful.
Know to the topic of girls, and well their is nothing really to add on this topic, though I know that god has not given me the gift of singleness (As much as I would have liked him to) I am content with the things the way their are. I do not really have fealings for any girl's / young women at the min. Mind you like allways I am aware of a few that I need to watch my self around, as I could easly fall for them, however unless I know one of them likes me I will contue to stop my self falling for them, (none of them know about my blog but I still will not menchine names as tasmania is a small place and chances are some one may know them). Previos experences have tought me that is a reciept for disaster. Even if I did find a women who liked me and I could feel the same way back the next question would be is god in the relationship, as I have choosen to try and hand all parts of my life other to my lord and god in heaven and till the day I die.
Still hope to oneday find a girl that will help me grow in god and can shair my life with and I can do the same back to but till that happens I will make the most of single life. OR until god provides me with a women to date and teach me what I need to learn for marrage for that matter.
Its funny one of the last times I feel in love it was because of how that persen made me feel, and could make the world one big lough, however know I look deeper and see that was such a selfish wish in a relationship. (YAY this persen is actually making me lough again, & I can be around her with out feeling any pain or strong feelings & the wierdness has allmost completly died.) Any way going back to the topic on hand this is not because enjoyment is evil but rather god intended relationships to bring so much more, to be a place for spiritual growth. This is not nesisearly to say that the young ladies I have noticed latterly fit the catagory of people that will help me in my walk as some are not even christian but rather it is to say that god has to be the center of every thing in life with out that being the case we are opening a reciept for disaster.
Ever since mid year confrence I have been learning more about god and the way he works he is amazing did you guys know that. Some of these insights as well as some of the messages god has placed on my heart for a long time I am beging to record drafts in audio form ready for when I record them to film for myspace.
I will mostlikely get a UTUBE acount to post these drafts as well as audio blogs in the mean time their. Topics include what is faith? Why Jesus, and so on. All have been fairly well reasurched as well as having much insperation coming from the Holly Spirit. In the end all the credit for what is said needs to go to god. I am looking forward to filming these clips. For some reasen I feel time is short however I do not know why. Is it short because in god's soverighn plan their are people who need to hear the clip and if I take to long they will not get the oppitunty to? IS it short because if I do the clips soon the lord will open doors that will other wise be shut? OR is time short for me? or is it just my Imaganation? In the end only god knows the answer to this question. By the same tokin I do not want to rush the messages, or jepodise my UNI work so the ballance will need to be found some where.
Spose its just as well I do not have alot of time demands in my life at the min though I want to get some work, to enable me to have fundings to better serve god ie: through helping others, & to be less reliant on perents. As well as just having some extra money to do things with.
God is actually changing me: He is beging to show me exactly what can be accomplished when some one uses their time wisely. He has began to show me what happens when I spend more time on UNI work, Spend more time devoted to him and spend more time doign house work, rather then often sitting here on the computer and waiting for time to pass me by. Last week in a few days of solid work I managed to acomplish what normally takes me a week or more. Rather for once I did not find this tireing. Infact he is teaching and training me to live in society more productivly all the time.
My uni stuff is going well art theory is ok, for my writen subject I am actually trying to finsh my work early.Not much else to say really about UNI.
What else has changed ow thats right I have shaved my beard and hair, the hair was a pratical thing as it was getting in my eyes and needed it shorter, cheaper to do it witht he hair clips I think I ended up with a number 8 or some thing then go to the hair dressers. Though it is thining out and I like keeping as much as possible, this was just one of the many sacrofices I have made by living of the income of a Uni student. While the beard was because some of my mates wanted to see what I would look like with out it and the moie. LOL Ok I am not that keen on it but they all like it does this mean it stays shaved or grows back I do not know.
I went to an art exibition opening the other day and acidently got abit tipsy I was still in control of my actions and when I noticed I stoped drinking still one ting I have noticed is know since I am simply haveing the odd social drink I can not drink that much at all. Where as I could in the past drink a 6 pack in a few hours know a few standard drinks have a simlar effect. The one good thing is as soon as I noticed the effect I hated it and stoped drinking praise the lord. I wonder if thats god calling me to stop drinking completly, or just be even more matchful.
Know to the topic of girls, and well their is nothing really to add on this topic, though I know that god has not given me the gift of singleness (As much as I would have liked him to) I am content with the things the way their are. I do not really have fealings for any girl's / young women at the min. Mind you like allways I am aware of a few that I need to watch my self around, as I could easly fall for them, however unless I know one of them likes me I will contue to stop my self falling for them, (none of them know about my blog but I still will not menchine names as tasmania is a small place and chances are some one may know them). Previos experences have tought me that is a reciept for disaster. Even if I did find a women who liked me and I could feel the same way back the next question would be is god in the relationship, as I have choosen to try and hand all parts of my life other to my lord and god in heaven and till the day I die.
Still hope to oneday find a girl that will help me grow in god and can shair my life with and I can do the same back to but till that happens I will make the most of single life. OR until god provides me with a women to date and teach me what I need to learn for marrage for that matter.
Its funny one of the last times I feel in love it was because of how that persen made me feel, and could make the world one big lough, however know I look deeper and see that was such a selfish wish in a relationship. (YAY this persen is actually making me lough again, & I can be around her with out feeling any pain or strong feelings & the wierdness has allmost completly died.) Any way going back to the topic on hand this is not because enjoyment is evil but rather god intended relationships to bring so much more, to be a place for spiritual growth. This is not nesisearly to say that the young ladies I have noticed latterly fit the catagory of people that will help me in my walk as some are not even christian but rather it is to say that god has to be the center of every thing in life with out that being the case we are opening a reciept for disaster.
Friday, June 29, 2007
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Long time since the last post:
It has been a long time since I have last put any thing in my blog. I have not been spending as much time on msn or forms of communication through the internet apart from vo-ip phone with parents and family but that is different any way.
First things are more normal between the girl I used to like (well still like her just not in a romantic way) and my self which is good. As a mist the way she made me laugh and so on.
Um I will add a few blog’s with in the next few days, one about free will and choices, and one about question’s I am asking my self about what is and is not ok to do as a Christian specially in relation to music and television. But also includes swearing and discussions other questions that are important to explore as a Christian.
First things are more normal between the girl I used to like (well still like her just not in a romantic way) and my self which is good. As a mist the way she made me laugh and so on.
Um I will add a few blog’s with in the next few days, one about free will and choices, and one about question’s I am asking my self about what is and is not ok to do as a Christian specially in relation to music and television. But also includes swearing and discussions other questions that are important to explore as a Christian.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Weirdness
Well I have been getting ready for my 21st party, Tonight I handed out the inverstations I do not know who is going if many people will or not. This brought up the topic of do you who do you invite and is it ok to invite every one but one persen from a group? Why is that question so complex? Well because the persen i was debating wever to invite I used to have so strong feelings for her. Now I still have some feelings though I don;t know what they are as they are no were near as strong. So how do I know I don;t still love her, well thats because I have started falling for a few other girls (most of them are rebound I know). Well actually it is slightly less and more complicated then that in that I don;t want to treat her any different to the other people from baywest. I have invited every one else from my last years bible study, and most of her friends so I gave her an inverstation that felt weird. Persenaly I don;t want her to come to the party if this wierdness brought on by us both ignoreing each other is going to contue and if the ignoring is going to stop for one night wells she is quiet welcome to come. I am not saying at the moment I want to be her best friend because that may bring back my emotions however to be on talking terms again and to have a random converstation about nothing know and then would be nice. (more or less the akwedness to stop.)
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Strength
My actions just latterly such as drinking have shown a large amount of weakness so I began thinking about what is strength. This is what I come up with:
Strength as a christian comes from knowing god and seeing the way he works. The knowing that god has always got your back, and to have expreienced the way he answers prayers, provides knowledge and heallings. As such a christian is at his weakest when we do not stand in this strength rather our own. For some that is because they do not know god well enough, others it is becasue we get side tracked or emotionaly drained and begin to place more importance on worldly things. Such as our emotional needs and physical needs above the need of God's and we forget god will look after each and every one of in his time and way. We only need to look to the writings of Paul in the bible and see what attitude we should have to pain suffering and the trials of this world. Yet so often as christians we fail do so, this is some thing I think so often we all need to repent from. You see as christians we should not worry to trust in god that every thing will be ok in the end. This does not justify acting in any sinful manner we desire, because our actions still have coniquences one of them being the amount of suffering Jesus had to experience for every sin. Rather gives us a peace of mind and the ability to rest in god.
Strength as a christian comes from knowing god and seeing the way he works. The knowing that god has always got your back, and to have expreienced the way he answers prayers, provides knowledge and heallings. As such a christian is at his weakest when we do not stand in this strength rather our own. For some that is because they do not know god well enough, others it is becasue we get side tracked or emotionaly drained and begin to place more importance on worldly things. Such as our emotional needs and physical needs above the need of God's and we forget god will look after each and every one of in his time and way. We only need to look to the writings of Paul in the bible and see what attitude we should have to pain suffering and the trials of this world. Yet so often as christians we fail do so, this is some thing I think so often we all need to repent from. You see as christians we should not worry to trust in god that every thing will be ok in the end. This does not justify acting in any sinful manner we desire, because our actions still have coniquences one of them being the amount of suffering Jesus had to experience for every sin. Rather gives us a peace of mind and the ability to rest in god.
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Moving on
Well currently moving on with Love and with Drinking.
It has been 4 to 5 days at least know since my last alcoholic drink and about that again since I have been drunk, looks like the lord is helping me over come this problem. I actually went to the Uni bar today and did not buy any thing. OK not that bigger deal, done that several times before, however latterly with my drinking habits have been a bit of an issue so it is a step in the right direction, and one of the first times I have brought nothing when I have not had to drive any were latter. My aim is not to drink any thing till Easter then afterwards review the amount I drink.
The drinking actually began during the christmas holidays catching up with mates ect. once or 2 I acidentaly drank to much and got drunk, once or twice I figured what the just this once I can drink more then what the bible says is ok with these mates, did not really have a huge proublem, apart from the Sin well by that I mean I did not have a need for alcahole. This contunied during o-week then slowly as things bagan looking more gloomy I began drinking to get drunk thats when I had the real proublem. As I was drinking to drawn my thoughts drinking not for social reasens but to get drunk effectivly drinking to sin.
Part of the reasen was lady proublems still know I am moving on and getting over the young lady I liked as well, or I may even be 100% over her not 100% sure I mean I still love this person but just as any other brother and sister in Christ (in other words care heaps about her). This raises the problem of failing for other women, and how can stop this from happening because for various reasons I am to much of a mess at the moment to enter some of relationship, and same goes with being not back, and also to much of a mess to be wondering about what may happen between me and some other women. So moving on is great specially if I does not mean completely fall for another women 4 awhile. I mean their is still one or two crushes I have had forever but some different women have allso caught my eye but thats a different matter.
So why does love hurt me so much u may ask well you see love hurts because I have only ever none one girl to like me and she was my sister friend (2 or more years younger then me), she was suicidal at the time, weighed 3 times my body weight, had nothing in common, she liked the normal high school sort of things, I liked following politics act… I was a christian she was not, I am not saying I was to good for her because she was kind hearted but it would have never worked. Any way she died last year I think of a heart attack so yeah that explains why love hurts so much. Ow and one girl rang me as a prank once that’s about all though. While 7 girls have searously broken my heart and a few others have to a lesser extent. You have heard of sweet 16 and never been kissed well I am nearly 21 and never been kissed and never been out on a date asides from by family members when I was young and once or 2 in primary school if you count them from playing playing kiss and catch chassings.
Still ever time I fall for some one new I think maybe this time it will be different but then I get my heart riped out again. So yeah thats why I get down after a while when I fall for a women. I hope all of this does not start me drinking again as moving on makes me think about all this stuff. GOD please help me be strong
It has been 4 to 5 days at least know since my last alcoholic drink and about that again since I have been drunk, looks like the lord is helping me over come this problem. I actually went to the Uni bar today and did not buy any thing. OK not that bigger deal, done that several times before, however latterly with my drinking habits have been a bit of an issue so it is a step in the right direction, and one of the first times I have brought nothing when I have not had to drive any were latter. My aim is not to drink any thing till Easter then afterwards review the amount I drink.
The drinking actually began during the christmas holidays catching up with mates ect. once or 2 I acidentaly drank to much and got drunk, once or twice I figured what the just this once I can drink more then what the bible says is ok with these mates, did not really have a huge proublem, apart from the Sin well by that I mean I did not have a need for alcahole. This contunied during o-week then slowly as things bagan looking more gloomy I began drinking to get drunk thats when I had the real proublem. As I was drinking to drawn my thoughts drinking not for social reasens but to get drunk effectivly drinking to sin.
Part of the reasen was lady proublems still know I am moving on and getting over the young lady I liked as well, or I may even be 100% over her not 100% sure I mean I still love this person but just as any other brother and sister in Christ (in other words care heaps about her). This raises the problem of failing for other women, and how can stop this from happening because for various reasons I am to much of a mess at the moment to enter some of relationship, and same goes with being not back, and also to much of a mess to be wondering about what may happen between me and some other women. So moving on is great specially if I does not mean completely fall for another women 4 awhile. I mean their is still one or two crushes I have had forever but some different women have allso caught my eye but thats a different matter.
So why does love hurt me so much u may ask well you see love hurts because I have only ever none one girl to like me and she was my sister friend (2 or more years younger then me), she was suicidal at the time, weighed 3 times my body weight, had nothing in common, she liked the normal high school sort of things, I liked following politics act… I was a christian she was not, I am not saying I was to good for her because she was kind hearted but it would have never worked. Any way she died last year I think of a heart attack so yeah that explains why love hurts so much. Ow and one girl rang me as a prank once that’s about all though. While 7 girls have searously broken my heart and a few others have to a lesser extent. You have heard of sweet 16 and never been kissed well I am nearly 21 and never been kissed and never been out on a date asides from by family members when I was young and once or 2 in primary school if you count them from playing playing kiss and catch chassings.
Still ever time I fall for some one new I think maybe this time it will be different but then I get my heart riped out again. So yeah thats why I get down after a while when I fall for a women. I hope all of this does not start me drinking again as moving on makes me think about all this stuff. GOD please help me be strong
Truth and Love
Truth and Love
Well this post was the one I said would be up in the next few days on the 4th of March nearly a month latter its up. Ok another thing to note, most of the reactions here are because of prevouse experences so the people involved should not feel guilty, blame them selfs or any thing else.
The first thing I will bring up even before entering into any over discussions is there is different levels of truth. The first of these is God’s TRUTH: I believe in a all knowing god who sees the TRUTH behind every word spoken and every action. This happens in away even we often can not understand because of the greater picture that he sees. This allows him to see the truth in away no one else can. He also knows us better then even we know our self’s. Gods truth is absolute truth. There is a few ways we can begin to see parts of God’s truth. This is in his word : (The Holy Bible) and through various ways with the help of the Holy Spirit / Holy Ghost. I will explore this in a latter blog.
The second context of truth is the truth according to our own eyes. While to some extent we understand the way we act, our past, our emotions and our interactions with others, we only see a limited picture of the truth according to our own eyes. This will be different, too the “truth” through some one else’s eyes because they see a different picture according to their own experiences and personality. This goes with out saying conflicts arise because of these conflicting constructed truths in the people minds. While we all at times try to get to bottom of these differences truth to resolve conflicts act. 2, or 3 or even thousands of these truths rarely in this context uncover a fraction of the absolute truth as this is to complex the best we can hope for is to resolve conflicts act….
Why am I going on about truth when this post is meant to be on romantic love? Well for several reasons 1: Knowing were you stand with some one when you are begging to fall for them may result in you not being as hurt as it maybe possible to restrict your emotions or at least prepare your self for the bad news. I thought of this point as I fell for a Girl / Women who seemed to be a friend (A different friend to the non-Christian one that I have told some of you about), she was funny, made me laugh and provided entertainment into my life then every thing backfired.
Any way continuing with what happened I thought their was a out side chance of some thing more, but I was not going to pursue any thing as I valued her friendship to much. Any way after I had completely fallen for her, I found out through another mate she was using msn messenger quite a-lot, she had previously told me she is not worth adding because she is never online (do not know if that’s the truth or a lie), any way I asked him to, to ask her if he could give me her address and found out she did not want me to have it. This ripped my heart out yet again, it seemed not only had my heart been broken I had lost one of the few people who actually made me laugh as a friend. Those of you who know me know that I often take things very seriously, any way I latter found out the reason was because of both our skills to communicate on the internet and especially mine because of my dyslexia.
Part of the reason why I did not understand this was actually because of this problem of me communicating on the internet so it was a fair call by her. Any way even if she did dislike me, in ways they would be justified as over the years I have developed a habit of often making mean jokes about girls that I notice are some what attractive and are kind and caring to stop me from falling for them. Others I just more or less completely ignore and others I use both tactics, this happens on a subsequences level, because every girl I have fallen for has knocked me back when I have asked them out. I am sorry to all the girls out there who I have done this to.
I often treat people who I consider could be mates in a similar manner with the names any way because of the years of being called names, because of the years of having glass bottles thrown at my head. God is slowly helping me work through these problems, I wish that he choose to this insistently but he is choosing to use the people in his body to do so praise the lord. As we should look to the God, who shows us the truth of how we should interact with one and another.
Anyway I have since began to get over her, still the friendship is very weird at the moment though. & in a funny way I am glad this happened because it has made me aware of wounds that I thought were healed and are still not. The fact this women went some way to heal some of the wounds through providing the glimpse of hope is also some thing good and in the long run I am proubly one step closer to being restalled. This story also highlights how differing aspects of the truth help create a mess and how with more of the truth coming out earlier I would not have been as hurt. Ironically through the period in which I was in pain I began drinking. You see the break down of the friendship / fellowship in Christ created to losses laughing regally and the small hope of something happening romantically. This was only small as I could not imagine a young adult like her falling for a guy like me and I was not going to act on these emotions. For awhile I turned from God’s hope, as because this person was Christian and I misguidedly believed perhaps god had some thing to do this relationship to help build hope for some small things going may way in this world for once to the hope that comes in the bottle (wine port, and beer mainly). Know I see clearly again I am dealing with that problem, Praise the lord he is helping me to sin less – through talking to brothers and sisters in Christ and a few other things, Victories through Christ come one day at a time at the moment, as God has made me more aware of Sins in my life and is calling me to deal with them.
Hope no one takes offence to this and its a fair portrait of events. I was going to post on how white lies and lies are the same and are sinful as they are the absence of truth, and also how thinking badly of a member of the body of Christ to the extent you do not want contact with them is a reflection of your sins as well as perhaps theirs. But the circumstances of the case changed since 4th of March.
Well this post was the one I said would be up in the next few days on the 4th of March nearly a month latter its up. Ok another thing to note, most of the reactions here are because of prevouse experences so the people involved should not feel guilty, blame them selfs or any thing else.
The first thing I will bring up even before entering into any over discussions is there is different levels of truth. The first of these is God’s TRUTH: I believe in a all knowing god who sees the TRUTH behind every word spoken and every action. This happens in away even we often can not understand because of the greater picture that he sees. This allows him to see the truth in away no one else can. He also knows us better then even we know our self’s. Gods truth is absolute truth. There is a few ways we can begin to see parts of God’s truth. This is in his word : (The Holy Bible) and through various ways with the help of the Holy Spirit / Holy Ghost. I will explore this in a latter blog.
The second context of truth is the truth according to our own eyes. While to some extent we understand the way we act, our past, our emotions and our interactions with others, we only see a limited picture of the truth according to our own eyes. This will be different, too the “truth” through some one else’s eyes because they see a different picture according to their own experiences and personality. This goes with out saying conflicts arise because of these conflicting constructed truths in the people minds. While we all at times try to get to bottom of these differences truth to resolve conflicts act. 2, or 3 or even thousands of these truths rarely in this context uncover a fraction of the absolute truth as this is to complex the best we can hope for is to resolve conflicts act….
Why am I going on about truth when this post is meant to be on romantic love? Well for several reasons 1: Knowing were you stand with some one when you are begging to fall for them may result in you not being as hurt as it maybe possible to restrict your emotions or at least prepare your self for the bad news. I thought of this point as I fell for a Girl / Women who seemed to be a friend (A different friend to the non-Christian one that I have told some of you about), she was funny, made me laugh and provided entertainment into my life then every thing backfired.
Any way continuing with what happened I thought their was a out side chance of some thing more, but I was not going to pursue any thing as I valued her friendship to much. Any way after I had completely fallen for her, I found out through another mate she was using msn messenger quite a-lot, she had previously told me she is not worth adding because she is never online (do not know if that’s the truth or a lie), any way I asked him to, to ask her if he could give me her address and found out she did not want me to have it. This ripped my heart out yet again, it seemed not only had my heart been broken I had lost one of the few people who actually made me laugh as a friend. Those of you who know me know that I often take things very seriously, any way I latter found out the reason was because of both our skills to communicate on the internet and especially mine because of my dyslexia.
Part of the reason why I did not understand this was actually because of this problem of me communicating on the internet so it was a fair call by her. Any way even if she did dislike me, in ways they would be justified as over the years I have developed a habit of often making mean jokes about girls that I notice are some what attractive and are kind and caring to stop me from falling for them. Others I just more or less completely ignore and others I use both tactics, this happens on a subsequences level, because every girl I have fallen for has knocked me back when I have asked them out. I am sorry to all the girls out there who I have done this to.
I often treat people who I consider could be mates in a similar manner with the names any way because of the years of being called names, because of the years of having glass bottles thrown at my head. God is slowly helping me work through these problems, I wish that he choose to this insistently but he is choosing to use the people in his body to do so praise the lord. As we should look to the God, who shows us the truth of how we should interact with one and another.
Anyway I have since began to get over her, still the friendship is very weird at the moment though. & in a funny way I am glad this happened because it has made me aware of wounds that I thought were healed and are still not. The fact this women went some way to heal some of the wounds through providing the glimpse of hope is also some thing good and in the long run I am proubly one step closer to being restalled. This story also highlights how differing aspects of the truth help create a mess and how with more of the truth coming out earlier I would not have been as hurt. Ironically through the period in which I was in pain I began drinking. You see the break down of the friendship / fellowship in Christ created to losses laughing regally and the small hope of something happening romantically. This was only small as I could not imagine a young adult like her falling for a guy like me and I was not going to act on these emotions. For awhile I turned from God’s hope, as because this person was Christian and I misguidedly believed perhaps god had some thing to do this relationship to help build hope for some small things going may way in this world for once to the hope that comes in the bottle (wine port, and beer mainly). Know I see clearly again I am dealing with that problem, Praise the lord he is helping me to sin less – through talking to brothers and sisters in Christ and a few other things, Victories through Christ come one day at a time at the moment, as God has made me more aware of Sins in my life and is calling me to deal with them.
Hope no one takes offence to this and its a fair portrait of events. I was going to post on how white lies and lies are the same and are sinful as they are the absence of truth, and also how thinking badly of a member of the body of Christ to the extent you do not want contact with them is a reflection of your sins as well as perhaps theirs. But the circumstances of the case changed since 4th of March.
Friday, March 9, 2007
God and the Ten comandments
What I thought would be a quick post is takeing longer then expected I am still working on it though. In the mean time their is this post to read.
For thouse of you who know me, you know I am heaverly intersted in politics. So that coment is nothing new, any way I am doing this course with ran by FOCUS in hobart on the bible and politics. We are made in the image of God and have been given some Authorty to rule over all creation the question is as Christians what does this rule over look like and do we still have this Authority these are a few questions I hope to deal with and write about within the next few weeks.
The first sesion in this course has confermed some thing I have long thought, God's Law and the Ten Comandments, can not be inforced on its citizems by any goverment this is for verious reasens every attempt through the old testerment has failed. The book of romans sugest that the only time we can live under the such a rule is in the kingdom that christ will bring. Various verses in Romans suport this idea.
Going on to my own thouyghts know
In the broader context christians are called to go forward and carry the good news, does this fit into the role a christian politions has to if it is not to enforce the law and do christians have role in politics at all?
Some how I believe yes as we called to stand up for the weak and vonerable, we are called to be the light and salt to relfect gods glory and politics is one of the stages this can be done on.
Monday, March 5, 2007
What to include and what not to include?
How many of your deepest emotions and secrets do you include when bloging? As there is a challenge in wanting to write the truth and wanting to protect people, from being hurt or not wanting to create messy situations?
For various reasons I have made the decision not to hold any thing back in my blog’s so I am sorry if the truth as seen through my eyes hurts any one or makes peoples life’s difficult. Perhaps it may open some peoples eye’s up wider or perhaps no-one will read it. But a testimony is nothing if we just choose what to add.
So other the next few days I will add posts on love, and a few other things.
For various reasons I have made the decision not to hold any thing back in my blog’s so I am sorry if the truth as seen through my eyes hurts any one or makes peoples life’s difficult. Perhaps it may open some peoples eye’s up wider or perhaps no-one will read it. But a testimony is nothing if we just choose what to add.
So other the next few days I will add posts on love, and a few other things.
Friday, March 2, 2007
O-Week o what a week ? What can I say cheap grog and mates that I have not seen in 4 months. Unfortanterly I have given in to temtation 1 or 2 or 4 or more times this week. I have not been much light or salt, more a diming relfection of light a glimpse of what should be.
Spose least Jesus offers us forgiveness. I thank him for being a refiner but I wish he would work in me quicker so that I can reflect more of him and less of me.
Spose least Jesus offers us forgiveness. I thank him for being a refiner but I wish he would work in me quicker so that I can reflect more of him and less of me.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Catching up:
Got counter strike the other day spent abit of time online messing around with that with a few friends from the coast. Over all been a good time and talked slightly to them about Jesus and alot of laning and gaming. Though we did hit the grog pretty bad on sat night which I fealt guilty about for awhile. Helped me rember we are all human and we still need christs forgivness.
Any way I will update it soon with some thing more substanual
ragards mark
Any way I will update it soon with some thing more substanual
ragards mark
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Well I started out my holidays lazing around, downloading movies and relaxing. Had a great time. However University is about to begin in just a couple of weeks and have not finished 1/1000 of the things I wanted to. I wish I had started earlier on the things god is calling me to do.
There is one good thing the more I do for god the more at peace I feel, the more motivated I am, and the less things of this world worry me.
I heard Peter (the pastor from forth) give a sermon on the will of god he pointed out as we spend more time in pray, in being the people god calls us to be the more god transforms our will and our heart to be alighned with his and the easier the tough roads become.
Looking back on the past few weeks I begin to see how true it is.
There is one good thing the more I do for god the more at peace I feel, the more motivated I am, and the less things of this world worry me.
I heard Peter (the pastor from forth) give a sermon on the will of god he pointed out as we spend more time in pray, in being the people god calls us to be the more god transforms our will and our heart to be alighned with his and the easier the tough roads become.
Looking back on the past few weeks I begin to see how true it is.
Thursday, February 8, 2007
God is Amazing
About a week ago I was feeling like crap, for one reason and another. Then I went away to a Christian conference. Through the conference our heavenly father gave me a new sense of purpose, of self belief, of strength to continue the war. Through gods strength I have been revived and restored.
You see through numerous events I started to become more and more focused on my own will, my own battles and wars. Slowly over last year I was still worshiping god, still holding on to whom he is, still seeking him however circumstances slowly pulled my attention in every day life away from him. Such events include, car crashes, beginning to fall for numerous girls, Uni study, fighting various lies, Sister in a bad state, a flat mate accessing child pornography on my laptop and trying to work out what I should do, battling with parents to trying get enough money for food on the table + to cover the internet and phone and at the some time have enough money that I can live some sort of social life. Balancing my time in the way god wants me to.
You see if the Evil one can not claim our soul he try’s to make us less productive for god. Some times through lies and self dought. Some times through over people, some times through guilt, some times through circumstances beyond our control. All we can do is ask god to help us stand our ground, and to help us carry the crosses we are called to carry. In time God is victories stand strong and believe this, and every thing else will be ok.
You see through numerous events I started to become more and more focused on my own will, my own battles and wars. Slowly over last year I was still worshiping god, still holding on to whom he is, still seeking him however circumstances slowly pulled my attention in every day life away from him. Such events include, car crashes, beginning to fall for numerous girls, Uni study, fighting various lies, Sister in a bad state, a flat mate accessing child pornography on my laptop and trying to work out what I should do, battling with parents to trying get enough money for food on the table + to cover the internet and phone and at the some time have enough money that I can live some sort of social life. Balancing my time in the way god wants me to.
You see if the Evil one can not claim our soul he try’s to make us less productive for god. Some times through lies and self dought. Some times through over people, some times through guilt, some times through circumstances beyond our control. All we can do is ask god to help us stand our ground, and to help us carry the crosses we are called to carry. In time God is victories stand strong and believe this, and every thing else will be ok.
Friday, February 2, 2007
Coast to Launcestone
Well had a great few days in Launcestone. I spent some time with my sis gran and cusin. Each have helped in their own sort of way as I am strugleing with different challengers at the moment.
Gran was lovely and showed me the careing kind and going out of way to helping people side of humanity that so often gets lost today. While my cusin helped me deal with both my temptation that has been building for obtaining money by driving certain products from plants between the coast and hobart. To obtain money, and my growing tempation to get high through means such as anti depresents. I hope her seeing my sinful side made her realise christians have their own proublems its just we have forgivness of god. As she is one of these people who is interested in religion but finds it hard to accept christianty.
While my sister read me some bible verse on the way back and that was very very very helpful. Aloud me to see area's god wanted me to change on.
Gran was lovely and showed me the careing kind and going out of way to helping people side of humanity that so often gets lost today. While my cusin helped me deal with both my temptation that has been building for obtaining money by driving certain products from plants between the coast and hobart. To obtain money, and my growing tempation to get high through means such as anti depresents. I hope her seeing my sinful side made her realise christians have their own proublems its just we have forgivness of god. As she is one of these people who is interested in religion but finds it hard to accept christianty.
While my sister read me some bible verse on the way back and that was very very very helpful. Aloud me to see area's god wanted me to change on.
Thursday, February 1, 2007
Call out to god
All relationships between Fathers and Sons are complex why should our relationship with our adopted Father the lord of all creation be any different?
Deep down it my heart I know all thats in the bible is true however I strugle the constant loneleness that often comes with being in this world. The trusting in god that every thing is going to be ok when their is so much evil around me. The falling in love with women and being regected time after time.
Though God has shown me his power to hill from time to time, though god has given me visions from time to time, though god has helped me through dificult times when will the lord allow me to rest?
When will the lord give me a persen to shair life with and to help me grow further in relationship with him by providing me with a sole mate in the flesh? I have seen enough of Jesus to Believe yet at times I would love to walk away into the sins of the world. To run from the pains of fighting the good fight and be high on drugs in a fools utophia. For the promises of gods seem so far away, Heavenly Father I need your help more then ever.
Help me bring people to you, Help to walk in your will, Help me fight for the starving, to sow the seads for your word were ever you may lead me. Help me with the compainship I need as I live away from my family. Help me come close to you again. I feel your love and presence in songs of worship lord even if its only for a min.
Father Help me except your will and wait for your timing. Help me to live by your ways for all this can only be done through you might lord of heaven and earth. UBA (Father) Let me live by your will.
Deep down it my heart I know all thats in the bible is true however I strugle the constant loneleness that often comes with being in this world. The trusting in god that every thing is going to be ok when their is so much evil around me. The falling in love with women and being regected time after time.
Though God has shown me his power to hill from time to time, though god has given me visions from time to time, though god has helped me through dificult times when will the lord allow me to rest?
When will the lord give me a persen to shair life with and to help me grow further in relationship with him by providing me with a sole mate in the flesh? I have seen enough of Jesus to Believe yet at times I would love to walk away into the sins of the world. To run from the pains of fighting the good fight and be high on drugs in a fools utophia. For the promises of gods seem so far away, Heavenly Father I need your help more then ever.
Help me bring people to you, Help to walk in your will, Help me fight for the starving, to sow the seads for your word were ever you may lead me. Help me with the compainship I need as I live away from my family. Help me come close to you again. I feel your love and presence in songs of worship lord even if its only for a min.
Father Help me except your will and wait for your timing. Help me to live by your ways for all this can only be done through you might lord of heaven and earth. UBA (Father) Let me live by your will.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
The internet
The internet used for good purposes or evil purposes. I am still mad with my flat mate as he downloaded child pornography on my laptop. To cut along story short another flat mate found the images and decided if I did not go to the police he would. Then I might be charged with being a accesery to the crime.
So I went to the Police and as a coniquence I have been with out my laptop for 2 months and the Tas Police have still not layed any charges. However I might get it back in a few weeks hopefully in time for uni. Before long they are also likely to lay charges I do not know if thats a good thing or bad. As does my flat mate need forgiveness and help or to be punished this is a question that eats me up inside.
One thing for sure though not haveing my laptop for awhile has made me realise how much of an Idol it was at times.
This time with out my laptop has allowed me to experement with server applications when I would be playing games up on the coast. I am going to format my pc and set up a web server. I will switch over to VISTA ulitmate soon for running the server on. Better port forwarding and hosting options avaible then on xp pro.
On the server I will have 3 main sections 1; Art profiles with an online shop; 2; A christian website proubly with podcasting live online radio station and 3; A photography site for my self as that is what I am studying at uni but it will all happen in gods time.
First thing is to format my computer and begin work on the pages.
Next step is to obtain all software needed and get the server working 100% as it should. Messing around with IIS protacols and DNS and so on for people who under stand that talk. Ow as well as setting up pearl and PHP and SQL on the server.
Let u guys no on the update Ant
So I went to the Police and as a coniquence I have been with out my laptop for 2 months and the Tas Police have still not layed any charges. However I might get it back in a few weeks hopefully in time for uni. Before long they are also likely to lay charges I do not know if thats a good thing or bad. As does my flat mate need forgiveness and help or to be punished this is a question that eats me up inside.
One thing for sure though not haveing my laptop for awhile has made me realise how much of an Idol it was at times.
This time with out my laptop has allowed me to experement with server applications when I would be playing games up on the coast. I am going to format my pc and set up a web server. I will switch over to VISTA ulitmate soon for running the server on. Better port forwarding and hosting options avaible then on xp pro.
On the server I will have 3 main sections 1; Art profiles with an online shop; 2; A christian website proubly with podcasting live online radio station and 3; A photography site for my self as that is what I am studying at uni but it will all happen in gods time.
First thing is to format my computer and begin work on the pages.
Next step is to obtain all software needed and get the server working 100% as it should. Messing around with IIS protacols and DNS and so on for people who under stand that talk. Ow as well as setting up pearl and PHP and SQL on the server.
Let u guys no on the update Ant
First post
Well I am starting this blog to talk about my life as a christian and the challengers this arrises through every day life. This blog will deal with my past and present and will include talking about drugs, mates, love and matters of faith.
Any way the basics about me are:
I am 20 year old Christian Male who lives in Tasmania. My Interests include music, TV shows, music, computers, Social drinking and photography.
Before I finish this post I was told by a christian mate a blog is not pulpit, while this is true as a christian every thing has something to do with god. From who we are, to who we are called with every thing being for the glory of god so how could I live him out of this?
Any way the basics about me are:
I am 20 year old Christian Male who lives in Tasmania. My Interests include music, TV shows, music, computers, Social drinking and photography.
Before I finish this post I was told by a christian mate a blog is not pulpit, while this is true as a christian every thing has something to do with god. From who we are, to who we are called with every thing being for the glory of god so how could I live him out of this?
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