Truth and Love

Truth and Love

Well this post was the one I said would be up in the next few days on the 4th of March nearly a month latter its up. Ok another thing to note, most of the reactions here are because of prevouse experences so the people involved should not feel guilty, blame them selfs or any thing else.

The first thing I will bring up even before entering into any over discussions is there is different levels of truth. The first of these is God’s TRUTH: I believe in a all knowing god who sees the TRUTH behind every word spoken and every action. This happens in away even we often can not understand because of the greater picture that he sees. This allows him to see the truth in away no one else can. He also knows us better then even we know our self’s. Gods truth is absolute truth. There is a few ways we can begin to see parts of God’s truth. This is in his word : (The Holy Bible) and through various ways with the help of the Holy Spirit / Holy Ghost. I will explore this in a latter blog.

The second context of truth is the truth according to our own eyes. While to some extent we understand the way we act, our past, our emotions and our interactions with others, we only see a limited picture of the truth according to our own eyes. This will be different, too the “truth” through some one else’s eyes because they see a different picture according to their own experiences and personality. This goes with out saying conflicts arise because of these conflicting constructed truths in the people minds. While we all at times try to get to bottom of these differences truth to resolve conflicts act. 2, or 3 or even thousands of these truths rarely in this context uncover a fraction of the absolute truth as this is to complex the best we can hope for is to resolve conflicts act….

Why am I going on about truth when this post is meant to be on romantic love? Well for several reasons 1: Knowing were you stand with some one when you are begging to fall for them may result in you not being as hurt as it maybe possible to restrict your emotions or at least prepare your self for the bad news. I thought of this point as I fell for a Girl / Women who seemed to be a friend (A different friend to the non-Christian one that I have told some of you about), she was funny, made me laugh and provided entertainment into my life then every thing backfired.

Any way continuing with what happened I thought their was a out side chance of some thing more, but I was not going to pursue any thing as I valued her friendship to much. Any way after I had completely fallen for her, I found out through another mate she was using msn messenger quite a-lot, she had previously told me she is not worth adding because she is never online (do not know if that’s the truth or a lie), any way I asked him to, to ask her if he could give me her address and found out she did not want me to have it. This ripped my heart out yet again, it seemed not only had my heart been broken I had lost one of the few people who actually made me laugh as a friend. Those of you who know me know that I often take things very seriously, any way I latter found out the reason was because of both our skills to communicate on the internet and especially mine because of my dyslexia.

Part of the reason why I did not understand this was actually because of this problem of me communicating on the internet so it was a fair call by her. Any way even if she did dislike me, in ways they would be justified as over the years I have developed a habit of often making mean jokes about girls that I notice are some what attractive and are kind and caring to stop me from falling for them. Others I just more or less completely ignore and others I use both tactics, this happens on a subsequences level, because every girl I have fallen for has knocked me back when I have asked them out. I am sorry to all the girls out there who I have done this to.

I often treat people who I consider could be mates in a similar manner with the names any way because of the years of being called names, because of the years of having glass bottles thrown at my head. God is slowly helping me work through these problems, I wish that he choose to this insistently but he is choosing to use the people in his body to do so praise the lord. As we should look to the God, who shows us the truth of how we should interact with one and another.

Anyway I have since began to get over her, still the friendship is very weird at the moment though. & in a funny way I am glad this happened because it has made me aware of wounds that I thought were healed and are still not. The fact this women went some way to heal some of the wounds through providing the glimpse of hope is also some thing good and in the long run I am proubly one step closer to being restalled. This story also highlights how differing aspects of the truth help create a mess and how with more of the truth coming out earlier I would not have been as hurt. Ironically through the period in which I was in pain I began drinking. You see the break down of the friendship / fellowship in Christ created to losses laughing regally and the small hope of something happening romantically. This was only small as I could not imagine a young adult like her falling for a guy like me and I was not going to act on these emotions. For awhile I turned from God’s hope, as because this person was Christian and I misguidedly believed perhaps god had some thing to do this relationship to help build hope for some small things going may way in this world for once to the hope that comes in the bottle (wine port, and beer mainly). Know I see clearly again I am dealing with that problem, Praise the lord he is helping me to sin less – through talking to brothers and sisters in Christ and a few other things, Victories through Christ come one day at a time at the moment, as God has made me more aware of Sins in my life and is calling me to deal with them.

Hope no one takes offence to this and its a fair portrait of events. I was going to post on how white lies and lies are the same and are sinful as they are the absence of truth, and also how thinking badly of a member of the body of Christ to the extent you do not want contact with them is a reflection of your sins as well as perhaps theirs. But the circumstances of the case changed since 4th of March.