I have decided to bring up the topic in order of importance in my current life. So rathe then the length putting u off just stop reading when you have had enough.
Ever since mid year confrence I have been learning more about god and the way he works he is amazing did you guys know that. Some of these insights as well as some of the messages god has placed on my heart for a long time I am beging to record drafts in audio form ready for when I record them to film for myspace.
I will mostlikely get a UTUBE acount to post these drafts as well as audio blogs in the mean time their. Topics include what is faith? Why Jesus, and so on. All have been fairly well reasurched as well as having much insperation coming from the Holly Spirit. In the end all the credit for what is said needs to go to god. I am looking forward to filming these clips. For some reasen I feel time is short however I do not know why. Is it short because in god's soverighn plan their are people who need to hear the clip and if I take to long they will not get the oppitunty to? IS it short because if I do the clips soon the lord will open doors that will other wise be shut? OR is time short for me? or is it just my Imaganation? In the end only god knows the answer to this question. By the same tokin I do not want to rush the messages, or jepodise my UNI work so the ballance will need to be found some where.
Spose its just as well I do not have alot of time demands in my life at the min though I want to get some work, to enable me to have fundings to better serve god ie: through helping others, & to be less reliant on perents. As well as just having some extra money to do things with.
God is actually changing me: He is beging to show me exactly what can be accomplished when some one uses their time wisely. He has began to show me what happens when I spend more time on UNI work, Spend more time devoted to him and spend more time doign house work, rather then often sitting here on the computer and waiting for time to pass me by. Last week in a few days of solid work I managed to acomplish what normally takes me a week or more. Rather for once I did not find this tireing. Infact he is teaching and training me to live in society more productivly all the time.
My uni stuff is going well art theory is ok, for my writen subject I am actually trying to finsh my work early.Not much else to say really about UNI.
What else has changed ow thats right I have shaved my beard and hair, the hair was a pratical thing as it was getting in my eyes and needed it shorter, cheaper to do it witht he hair clips I think I ended up with a number 8 or some thing then go to the hair dressers. Though it is thining out and I like keeping as much as possible, this was just one of the many sacrofices I have made by living of the income of a Uni student. While the beard was because some of my mates wanted to see what I would look like with out it and the moie. LOL Ok I am not that keen on it but they all like it does this mean it stays shaved or grows back I do not know.
I went to an art exibition opening the other day and acidently got abit tipsy I was still in control of my actions and when I noticed I stoped drinking still one ting I have noticed is know since I am simply haveing the odd social drink I can not drink that much at all. Where as I could in the past drink a 6 pack in a few hours know a few standard drinks have a simlar effect. The one good thing is as soon as I noticed the effect I hated it and stoped drinking praise the lord. I wonder if thats god calling me to stop drinking completly, or just be even more matchful.
Know to the topic of girls, and well their is nothing really to add on this topic, though I know that god has not given me the gift of singleness (As much as I would have liked him to) I am content with the things the way their are. I do not really have fealings for any girl's / young women at the min. Mind you like allways I am aware of a few that I need to watch my self around, as I could easly fall for them, however unless I know one of them likes me I will contue to stop my self falling for them, (none of them know about my blog but I still will not menchine names as tasmania is a small place and chances are some one may know them). Previos experences have tought me that is a reciept for disaster. Even if I did find a women who liked me and I could feel the same way back the next question would be is god in the relationship, as I have choosen to try and hand all parts of my life other to my lord and god in heaven and till the day I die.
Still hope to oneday find a girl that will help me grow in god and can shair my life with and I can do the same back to but till that happens I will make the most of single life. OR until god provides me with a women to date and teach me what I need to learn for marrage for that matter.
Its funny one of the last times I feel in love it was because of how that persen made me feel, and could make the world one big lough, however know I look deeper and see that was such a selfish wish in a relationship. (YAY this persen is actually making me lough again, & I can be around her with out feeling any pain or strong feelings & the wierdness has allmost completly died.) Any way going back to the topic on hand this is not because enjoyment is evil but rather god intended relationships to bring so much more, to be a place for spiritual growth. This is not nesisearly to say that the young ladies I have noticed latterly fit the catagory of people that will help me in my walk as some are not even christian but rather it is to say that god has to be the center of every thing in life with out that being the case we are opening a reciept for disaster.
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