Call out to god

All relationships between Fathers and Sons are complex why should our relationship with our adopted Father the lord of all creation be any different?

Deep down it my heart I know all thats in the bible is true however I strugle the constant loneleness that often comes with being in this world. The trusting in god that every thing is going to be ok when their is so much evil around me. The falling in love with women and being regected time after time.

Though God has shown me his power to hill from time to time, though god has given me visions from time to time, though god has helped me through dificult times when will the lord allow me to rest?

When will the lord give me a persen to shair life with and to help me grow further in relationship with him by providing me with a sole mate in the flesh? I have seen enough of Jesus to Believe yet at times I would love to walk away into the sins of the world. To run from the pains of fighting the good fight and be high on drugs in a fools utophia. For the promises of gods seem so far away, Heavenly Father I need your help more then ever.

Help me bring people to you, Help to walk in your will, Help me fight for the starving, to sow the seads for your word were ever you may lead me. Help me with the compainship I need as I live away from my family. Help me come close to you again. I feel your love and presence in songs of worship lord even if its only for a min.

Father Help me except your will and wait for your timing. Help me to live by your ways for all this can only be done through you might lord of heaven and earth. UBA (Father) Let me live by your will.